It's Not Going to Happen by Magic

It's become clear to me that I'm holding out some hope that I'll come out the other side of OCD without any hard work or anxiety. That's not only not realistic, it's also keeping me from starting the hard work.

I'm feeling my usual anxiety about being sick (no shock there). I really want to take a shower to "wash off the germs" of spending all day in a meeting with 30 other people. But I'm not going to. Then tomorrow, I'm off to expose my whole family to whatever germs I may have. And of course hanging out with whatever germs they may have. And then I'll be doing that all over again on Sunday.

Anxiety turns me cranky, unfortunately. So I am cranky and expect I will be most of the weekend.