Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Hey, Another "Push"

Well, at the risk of sounding like a broken record, I'm trying another big exposure push. I figure every push, even if not fully successful, takes me a little further down the road I ultimately want to travel.

So far what this push looks like: if I realize I'm avoiding something, I do it. Today I didn't want to pay with cash at the grocery store, because then I get change, and who knows where it's been. So I paid with cash. I noticed that the clerk looked a little glassy eyed (thus surely had a cold). I stayed in her line.

I'm going downtown today, and my OCD instinct is to park far away from my destination in a spot that doesn't require using the pay station. But I'm going to use the pay station, and pay with a credit card (I prefer coins- you touch less that way).

One thing I like about this, when I'm "feeling it," is that the decisions are actually easier. Sounds scary? No point in fretting, 'cause that's what I'll be doing. And if I get sick, it's a badge of success.

1 comment:

  1. I admire how you've honed in on what the OCD is demanding of you and facing it head on! Very cool.