I was feeling guilty about canceling on my aunt. Then I discovered mold growing under some vinyl flooring in my basement. I wouldn't normally be worried much about mold (despite being allergic), but I'm currently making a quilt for a friend's wedding. I already have vague fears about "contaminating" the quilt. Releasing mold spores throughout the house didn't help.
Oh, well, tomorrow is another day.
You are stronger than you think!
1 year ago
Ah, the mold spore obsession... ; ) Mold spores fit really well into the OCD paradigm because of their ability to travel through the air...extra scary because now it isn't just about touching things.
ReplyDeleteThese are especially tough to combat, but we have to remember the elaborate chain links we put together from one contaminant to whatever we find most valuable are STILL there because of ocd.
I know it can be scary when there is a hint of truth in your obsessions. At least for me, when I have obsessions like that, I think, "Well wait--this isn't like the other thing because this really COULD happen."
But just because there was mold in your house doesn't mean the probability of something bad happening is any greater than it happening if you DIDN'T find the mold.
Consider the rational reality :)
I agree, I have more trouble when something is slightly possible. Some of my fears are so off the wall it's actually easier to realize, "well, I'm sure not going to be the first to get disease X that way!"
ReplyDeleteI used to have a MAJOR mold issue. Then I had an actual mold infestation in my last home that required a professional remediation. But nothing horrible happened (except it cost a lot), and that brought my fear down a lot.