Saturday, December 1, 2012

Another Week

This week featured some classic "one step forward two steps back" OCD action. Well, it was probably only one step forward, one step back.

I still struggle with my fear of simple colds. One of my coworkers has a 95 year old mom who's prone to bronchitis, which could actually kill her, given her generally fragile state. My rational self knows that I'm not required to never ever get a cold just so I won't give it to Kathy, who will give it to her mom, who will die.

But I still worry. Last week I had what I think was the world's mildest cold. Frankly, I'm still not sure. I kept waiting for it to get worse, and it just never did. I was a little sniffly, with a minor sore throat.

On Friday I had scheduled lunch with a former co-worker and Kathy. I wanted to cancel it SO badly. There were a number of things about it that tweaked my OCD. But I didn't. Once it was Friday, I actually looked forward to it, too, which is such a rare and pleasant feeling for me regarding social events.

As soon as lunch was over, though, I found new events to try to avoid. It never ends, does it!

7 comments:

  1. It may never really end, but you accomplished your goal of having lunch with your friend, and that was great!

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  2. But you kept your lunch date. Yeah! That's definitely in the "one step forward" department!

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  3. Congratulations on going through with the lunch!
    And yeah, OCD seems to just keep going for me, too, but not always as strong.

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  4. Ugh, I hear you about this, Ann. This is one of my big triggers as well. But you know, I really don't think you took a step back. You went to the lunch and that is a MAJOR victory. Really good for you!!

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  5. That is kinda of how I feel..it never ends..but then again, you experienced joy in looking forward to the lunch which you said is rare (I can so relate to that) and that is such a positive thing Ann. I am happy for you.

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  6. Thank you for your insightful blog! I wanted to let you know that there's another new memoir out there about OCD. It's called Compelled: A Memoir of OCD, Anxiety, Depression, Bi-Polar Disorder, and Faith...Sometimes. It's a quick and insightful read. Again, thanks for your work on this blog!

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  7. Good for you for not listening to OCD! You're doing great!

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