This summer I want to work on stopping avoidance. While I do a lot of exposures and avoid things less than I used to, it's so easy to avoid scary things without even realizing it. Or to rationalize: next week is really busy/important/stressful, so I'll just avoid this one thing this one time. Repeat to eternity.
This weekend I wanted to avoid attending a big rummage sale at my mom's church. I feared my mom had a cold, and I feared bed bugs. But I did go, I looked at all the furniture, and I bought a bag full of stuff.
There are a lot of bigger things I've been avoiding as well, including several medical appointments, and that massage I bought back in the spring.
This is something I really should make a hierarchy for, because jumping to some of the higher things seems overwhelming.
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