Well, that was a giant posting gap, wasn't it? Nothing major caused it and nothing major has brought me back.
My OCD is doing its thing. As I have been for a while, I'm pretty good at doing exposures related to health/contamination issues, less good with my general anxiety stuff.
For the last 2 months, everyone around me (it seems!) has been sick with something. I've done a surprisingly good job at not avoiding anyone at these times, and not worrying much after I've spent time around them. Despite this, I still flinch (not visibly I hope!) whenever I hear someone's sick.
I had an interesting experience a little while ago. I'd been waiting a LONG time for a medical appointment. I worried about weather, I worried I'd get sick, I worried the doctor would get sick. And SHE DID. My appointment was canceled a mere hour before the appointment because the doctor got sick. This is one of the few times in my many years of OCD that something I feared actually happened. Were the consequences huge? No, but it was still jarring. I've held the totally irrational belief that my worries actually do help keep trouble away, and this is just more evidence that it isn't true. I was surprised how much that point freaked me out!
Anyway, hope everyone had a good holiday season. I'm not sure I'll be back to frequent posting, but probably won't skip an entire 6 weeks either.
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1 year ago
Good to hear from you, Ann. I'm glad that you are making it through the "sick season" without avoidance. I'm kind of freaked out, too, when an OCD fear actually comes to fruition. I guess that just reminds us of the reality of uncertainty.
ReplyDeleteI think general anxiety is harder to fight than concentrated OCD anxieties. I have trouble with that, too. It is too hard to pin down.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear from you again!
Great to hear from you!
ReplyDeleteYep, I've had some of my fears come true as well, and, just like you, the world did not end! Nor did my worrying about it prevent it from happening.
Hi Ann! So awesome to see more people online talking about OCD! I just created a Facebook page (hopefully you have Facebook :) ) that shares stories about peoples personal experiences with OCD! I would love for you to share your story with us!
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