Wednesday, February 13, 2013

It's Perfect! I Hate It!

I've mentioned before my tendency to try to micromanage my schedule to avoid anxiety. I hate to plan events ahead, because I have time to worry. I much prefer to wake up and think, "Okay, I'm healthy, they're healthy, the weather is good, let's go, RIGHT NOW!" My family has adjusted to this quite well. :)

Today at a work training, a coworker asked me if I wanted to come out to her job site next week. We've talked about it before, but I forgot. I want to see it, though, and it will help me perform my job.

BUT, a storm is forecast for the day she suggested, and I'd have to drive out with her (socially awkward, and accident fears activated).

She told me she goes out there almost every day, and I wanted to say, how about tomorrow!? But I didn't. I got home and deeply regretted that, but tomorrow I will tell her that Tuesday is perfect!


  1. I can relate to wanting to do something right away to avoid worrying about it! But then now, I don't like that because I like to prepare (mentally) to do something.

    1. I like to have it both ways, Kristina! I call people last minute myself, but when THEY are planning things, my family knows its best to give me time to think about it.

  2. Good for you, Ann! You can do it, I know it. Can't wait to hear how it goes.

  3. Oh, Ann, you are so good at forging ahead with the exposures even when you don't want to. So proud of you and inspired by you!