Major life changes certainly bring out my anxiety. I'm hanging in there, and should be pretty much done by a week or so from now. But it's not easy.
I had finally started working on some mindfulness and meditation, but the change in schedule has sort of thrown it all out the window. I do realize that's a choice- if I were really dedicated to this process, I'd make it a higher priority.
Yesterday, I did something I haven't done in ages- I drove to work on a day I wasn't scheduled to be there, in order to check something. Checked on it twice, in fact. I was so mad at myself, but I still did it. When I'm less stressed, I can make myself make that right decision, and in fact have done that a lot lately. I guess this gives me a chance to practice self acceptance: I don't always make the right decisions, but it doesn't make me a bad or weak person, and I can wake up tomorrow and try to do better.
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4 years ago
Change is so hard, as is accepting one's self when things don't go as we wish. I hope things settle down for you soon.
ReplyDeleteThere is not one of us who does things perfectly. OCD is a very difficult disorder and I think it's amazing that you have made as much progress as you have on your own. These types of slips are so normal and frankly, to be expected from time to time. Especially during stressful times. Be gentle with yourself.
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