I'm charging right along. I got the job I interviewed for, and even started last week. It's only one or two days a week, but it's a guarantee that I'll get out of the house. OCD creeps in: I find myself wanting to stay in the house so I don't get sick and have to call in so early in the job. Then I remind myself that I'm not allowed to do things like that anymore, and I head out to the store or to a restaurant to bask in some germs. The job itself makes my OCD twitch- am I doing it right, do they think I'm stupid, etc. etc- but there's nothing to do but let those thoughts hang out there and continue right along with life. I succeed at that to varying degrees.
The other day I was at my sister's house, and my brother-in-law, who works in an emergency room, came home from work. "You would not believe how much flu is out there right now!" he exclaimed. Thanks for the info! One sign of improvement, is that I'm moving from such a statement making me angry/irritable- I don't want to know this- to almost immediately being able to view it as just another exposure.
And finally, today my water heater started leaking. My landlords came over to fix it, and I was bothered less than usual about people clomping through the house. Well, I think I was anyway. I'm choosing to focus on the positive this weekend, so there you have it.
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4 years ago
Congrats on getting the job! And it sounds like you have really progressed in realizing when OCD is butting in. It's a process for all of us--a little at a time, and then we look back and see how far we've come.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a great start to 2015!! Good for you!
ReplyDeleteHigh5! I have OCD as well, I am still in the infancy of my recovery, but determined to triumph!!! Your story is encouraging.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the job! I get wanting to stay home because of OCD. I started a part time job myself a few months ago, and some days it is just brutal trying to get out the door.
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