The house sale closed on Monday. It was not exactly a fun two weeks, but it was pretty okay, all things considered. A few weeks ago I stopped my medication, not by design, but because for some reason I forgot to take it. This time, my anxiety did not increase. I also think I'm getting better at using cognitive skills and exposure work, which certainly didn't hurt.
So now I have what I think is a date next week. I'm going hiking with a friend, but it doesn't strike me that we'd be going on a hike if it weren't a date. Anyway, I'd like it to be. This is a person who has noted that spending time with me is pleasantly low stress. Now, if we end up in a relationship, I know that I can't pretend to be mellow all the time, just to keep him happy. On the other hand, I'm happier when I'm mellow, too, so I want to really double down on practicing my OCD coping skills. We'll see what happens.
You are stronger than you think!
1 year ago
Yay, the house closed! And that's great that the anxiety has gotten better, too. And that you're looking forward to spending time with a date. :-)
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ReplyDeleteCongrats on the house!
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Congratulations on your closing! And I like your reasoning about working on "being mellow." Hope the "date" went well.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with stopping your medication! It is the right thing to do, in my opinion.
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