Did two good OCD-related things today.
One, I went to the Harry Potter movie. Surrounded by sneezing, sniffling, and coughing people. Later in the day, I toilet-brushed the toilet at the boyfriend's house. After 4 months, it became pretty clear no one else was going to do it. I cannot actually remember the last time I cleaned a toilet without taking a shower after (I save up all the yucky cleaning). But since that wasn't really an option here, I didn't. Even stopped at the grocery store on the way home.
I'm still wearing the same clothes I wore all day today, and I'm not showering before bed. It's so interesting to me. When I know I'm going to take a shower, I have a particular contaminated feeling that doesn't dissipate until I'm done showering. When I know I"m going to push back and skip the shower, the contaminated feeling goes away fairly quickly. I'm feeling fine now.
I'm not feeling so great about the fact that for some reason my cat has been sleeping right smack in the middle of my pillow for the last two hours. But that's a whole other issue...
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1 year ago
oh my gosh ann, thats is exactly how i feel. like if i am in the comfort of my own home then i can act more obsessive and shower after i was going to mop or clean, but when im at someone elses and i have to clean something or im at work, i react totally different and push away the feeling of contamination. p.s i use baby wipes to clean the toilet, they trap all the mess and i just chuck them out straight away and wash my hands directly after:)
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I'm intrigued by the difference in feeling when you know you are going to shower and when you don't! It seems important. Your cat really wants to help with exposures. . .
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